They said it would rain. And it did. Just pissing rain. Enough to get wet, but not wet enough to carry an open umbrella, so we walked home in the rain tonight. However, the weather still has been stellar for a number of days.
Oh My God … I am so POOOOOOOPED !!!
Let’s back up a little bit and tell you about the week that was. Tuesday we talked about liquor and the fact that alcoholism is an incurable disease. Nuff Said about that !
Wednesday is my off night, which has become cook dinner for Baby Mama and Ms. LuLu. I started this little tradition when she first got here, one, to familiarize myself and the baby, and two, to cook her a meal that would last, which usually is a crock pot or casserole dish. But lately it has turned into “chicken” and doesn’t everything work out when it gets to chicken ???
We are still working to fill the apartment. We are still missing a sofa, for one reason only, there are no folks with trucks in the rooms it seems. We have all these resources but no truck owners. We got a quote for a mover who wanted to charge us $300.00 and mama was like fuck that !
So there is a single rocking chair in the living room.
Tomorrow, Saturday, I am installing an air conditioner for the baby’s room.
There are shitty things called by-laws that dictate just how you can install, where you can install using specific REQUIRED tools and wood and plexiglass shit ! UGH, they have to make this so damned complicated, I have an easy peasy, 10 minute hook up that I do here at home, but NOOOO that was just too easy and unacceptible to the apartment management.
God give me strength …
Well, you all know what happened last night.
The shit storm hack event of the century.
Today, Friday I worked my ass off.
There is no better work to do than be of service to someone that you can be present for.
A few hours of work changed two lives in the end.
Who needs Jiffy Maid, when you got me instead!
I came home for a couple of hours and headed off for the best night of the week.
Tonight’s topic … BE STILL AND KNOW THAT I AM GOD …
Well, that was just one sentence of the reading, which came from a very early letter from Bill W.
it spoke about Bill’s consternation, early on that he could not convert the alcoholic to sobriety. In fact he failed several times over, trying to get men sober, and failed miserably, before going to talk to Doctor Silkworth, who told Bill that NO, Bill, you cannot convert the alcoholic. All you can do is share what you know, your experience, and that’s it.
You are not the center of the universe and You are not God. Hence,
BE STILL AND KNOW THAT I AM GOD.
Still, to this day, our young people balked when the words Christ and God came within this reading. But they have come a long way in being open to discussions about God, over and over again.
Bill speaks a great deal about GOD in As Bill Sees It.
Continuously !!! Over and Over again …
I got the message I needed to hear.
It was a frenetic, exhilarating day. I worked my ass off with one of my guys. We had lunch and we hung out together all day long while we worked.
At the end of the day the only thing I wanted to know was, if for a few minutes tonight, sitting with his girlfriend that he felt, just a little bit, better about himself. And he did.
All I want is to be a vessel. All I want is for everybody to be well. We all want to be of maximum service to as many people as we can. And we do this in spades.
I am really grateful to have the friends I do.
I would not be the man I am without them.
Another week in the books.
We are all safe, sober, alive.
The computer is encrypted. I will eventually get all my money back.
It’s all good.
Be Still and Know that I am God…
More to come, stay tuned …