Monday: DENIAL is not a River in Egypt


The book says that “The only thing that has to change in sobriety, is Everything.”

The book also says that “Anything you put before your sobriety will fail, that sobriety must come first, even if we think it doesn’t have to be.”

They say that “Once you take away the drugs and alcohol, and we sober up, we learn that we begin to FEEL. The question is, what do we do with these feelings?”

A meeting that falls after something tragic, or politically charged, is hard. Because people are trying to figure out what they do with their fear, or their sorrow, or their pain, or their anger or their rage?

My friends are trying to navigate that fine line between Chaos and Order. To navigate being Responsible, or to deciding not to be responsible. That is the fine line we walk, in the rooms.

When we get sober, and we leave behind the chaos that followed us around for all the years we drank and used, order comes. This usually throws people off.

  • What do I do with that order?
  • How do I engage,
  • How do I become responsible, and finally,
  • What is my place in the grand scheme of things.

Nobody should ever tell you, inside a room, that what you feel is wrong, or irrational, or childish. Nobody should ever feel that they have to tone down their feelings when they are coming at you at 100 miles per hour.

A young lady I know, was in pieces tonight over all that has happened, here in Quebec, and worldwide. She needed to know what to do with her feelings, and how to deal with them…

Feelings come and go. And sometimes they are overwhelming. I know from emotional catastrophe. I also know what it felt like for someone to call me irrational during one of the hardest moments in my life, not so long ago.

I think, in my opinion, that we should feel what we feel, in whatever degree it comes to us. And when that happens, if we do this thing soberly … Depending on how much time you have, not to allow our feelings to push us out to either drink or use.

Having people around us when the waters are choppy are crucial, so that we are not alone in the boat, whilst navigating choppy seas.

  • I will stand with you, and allow you your space,
  • And I will support you,
  • In whatever way I can.

Pandora’s Box is open, and the Monster I warned everybody about is wreaking havoc in the United States. We must find a way to stop him.

Uncertainty rules the day. Fear is ruling the day as well. Sorrow has filled the hearts of many, because on Monday night, we meet in a church, INSIDE the church. Where we are safe, warm, and secure.

Last night, in a similar sacred space, the sanctity of life and the sanctity of the practice of religious faith was rocked with a deranged young boy, with Far Right leanings, a boy who WAS a Navy and then an Army Cadet …

A fucking Cadet … for God’s sake …

Walked into a prayer service and began shooting innocents. Six are dead, many more were injured, some critically. Reports are all over the map, so I stuck to the basics. But today I had to post the face of this young boy, one of our own Canadian boys, who lives in this free country, where he was educated and lived.

And in a split second he took on the role of Judge, Jury and Executioner …

It was not a Muslim man, perpetrating injustice on his own people, it was a Francophone CITIZEN who killed a handful of innocents.

If we deny what we feel,we minimize our own expressions of those feelings. Because for so long we drowned what we felt with booze and drugs. And now so many are in this place, of not knowing what to do with themselves, because we are all feeling a wide expanse of feelings …

Anger, Sorrow, Fear, Rage, just to name a few…

People are sad, people are angry, people do not know what to do with all that is going on in the world. And we also know, or will find out, that on a grand scale we are powerless to affect change or do anything but express how we feel, to whomever will listen.

We can attend memorials. We can march in the streets. We can sign petitions.

We can sit in our depth of feeling and let the water roll over us and take us and drown us, or we can allow the water to wash over us, and we learn what to do with what we are feeling in a positive and constructive way.

The only thing I can share with you is what I do when I am feeling any one of the above referenced feelings … I talk, I cry, I scream, I rage, then I write.

We must Stand as ONE, we must Speak as ONE, we must Act as ONE.


To the bitter end.

We must not give up our rights or our freedoms, where ever you live, in what ever country or state. We must fight for our dignity, respect and rights of every human being, as the Constitution gives us as Citizens.

If the government thinks that they can just rip the Statue of Liberty off her plinth and forget the words etched on her tablet and spit in the face of the millions of people who passed by her looking for a better life, they are WRONG. Very WRONG.

Here in Canada, we must state categorically that we abhor violence and the killing of innocents. The houses of religious practice are sacred, and should be respected that way. Because if you come and taint our house of worship with your violence, you incur the wrath of the very God you seek to destroy.

We will punish you to the fullest extent of Canadian law.

We Remember, We Mourn, We Feel, We are Sad, and we are With You.

The killing of innocents is abhorrent.

The banning of people from achieving a safe, secure, and solid home, where they can live without war, suffering or hunger, is abominable.

Do You Hear Me Mr. Trump, It Is Abominable.

You are abominable.

Hear us, as we Speak, March and Rise as ONE.

We Will Never Be defeated. We Will Never Bow to Terror. We Will Stand up and be Counted.

We are Québécois, We are Canadians. We are Americans.

We Are the People.


Suspect in Quebec City mosque shooting charged with 6 counts of 1st-degree murder


Published Monday, January 30, 2017 7:56AM EST
Last Updated Monday, January 30, 2017 6:02PM EST

A Canadian man has been identified as the lone suspect in a mass shooting at a Quebec City mosque, where six were killed and five others critically injured during evening prayers on Sunday.

Alexandre Bissonnette, 27, is charged with six counts of first-degree murder and 5 counts of attempted murder. In an afternoon press conference, an RCMP spokesperson said that additional terrorism-related charges may be forthcoming.

Bissonnette was arrested along with one other individual following a shooting at the Islamic Cultural Centre of Quebec shortly before 8 p.m. Sunday, in the Sainte-Foy neighbourhood. The second person is being treated as a witness, according to Surete du Quebec.

The Department of National Defense confirms that Alexandre Bissonnette was a cadet between 2002 and 2004 in the Quebec City area. He was an air force cadet briefly in 2002, then an army cadet. Cadets are not members of the Canadian Armed Forces and they do not receive military training.

Laval University, a French-language public university in Quebec City, has confirmed that Bissonnette was a student at the institution’s Faculty of Social Sciences.

Six people were killed in the mosque shooting, including a professor and a grocery store owner.

Five victims were taken to hospital in critical condition. Police say the victims were all men between the ages of 39 and 60. More than a dozen others suffered minor injuries.

Of the five victims taken to hospital, three remained in intensive care Monday morning. The other two were in critical but stable condition, a hospital spokesperson said.

Investigators are asking for members of the public to come forward with any information that might help with the case.

Patrick Lalonde, assistant director of the Service de Police de la ville de Montreal, says security has been increased around mosques in the area. “We have asked for all our police officers to increase the levels of vigilance and surveillance around mosques and other community services,” he said at a news conference Monday morning.

Prime Minister Justin Trudeau and Quebec Premier Philippe Couillard both condemned the incident as a terrorist attack.

“It is heart-wrenching to see such senseless violence,” Trudeau said in a statement. He also offered his sympathies to the victims and his support to Canada’s Muslim community. “Diversity is our strength, and religious tolerance is a value that we, as Canadians, hold dear,” he said. “Muslim-Canadians are an important part of our national fabric, and these senseless acts have no place in our communities, cities and country.”

Trudeau repeated his condemnation of the attack in the House of Commons Monday afternoon, where he again called it a “terrorist attack.” He is slated to visit Quebec City later in the day, along with Rona Ambrose, interim leader of the Conservative Party, and Thomas Mulcair, leader of the NDP.

“We must stand united,” Trudeau said. “Senseless violence has no place in Canadian society.”

Premier Couillard urged Quebecers to stand in solidarity with the Muslim community. “Let us unite against violence,” he tweeted in French.

“This is your home, you’re welcome here,” Couillard said at a news conference, speaking to the Muslim community. “We are all Quebecers.”

Public Safety Minister Ralph Goodale later told reporters that the motivation for the attack is not known, but that it meets the “broad definition” of a terror attack.

He said Canada’s terrorism threat level remains at medium, where it has stood since October 2014.

Quebec City Mayor Regis Labeaume said the city is in mourning. “We have the impression we are dreaming,” Labeaume said at a news conference Sunday night. “I have often said in recent weeks that, despite the peace we have here, we are not immune (to attacks). Well, this has just proven that.”

Video from the scene shows several police cars outside the mosque on Sunday night.

Vigils are planned at mosques in several parts of the country, including Quebec City and Montreal.

Members of the Muslim community have condemned the attack, with many calling for tighter security around other mosques in the country.

“We are horrified by this despicable act of violence,” Ihsaan Gardee, executive director of the National Council of Canadian Muslims, said in a statement. “This act of wanton murder must be punished to the fullest extent of the law.”

Six dead in Quebec City Mosque Terror Attack


The Canadian Press
Published Sunday, January 29, 2017 9:33PM EST
Last Updated Sunday, January 29, 2017 11:56PM EST
Last Updated Sunday, January 29, 2017 1:05 AM EST
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QUEBEC — The president of a Quebec City mosque says he has been told that six people have been killed and eight more injured some critically, in the building.

The shooting took place at Centre Culturel Islamique de Quebec, in Quebec City.

Mohamed Yangui says he heard the news from witnesses.

Police tweeted there were deaths and injuries but didn’t say how many victims there were.

They said two suspects were in custody.

A live video feed on a Facebook page of a mosque showed images of multiple police vehicles and yellow police tape.

Public Safety Minister Ralph Goodale tweeted Sunday he was deeply saddened by the loss of life.

Quebec Premier Philippe Couillard reacted on Twitter by calling it “barbaric violence.”

“All our solidarity is with those who are close to the victims, the injured and their families,” he said.

Prime Minister Justin Trudeau also weighed in on the tragedy.

“Tonight, Canadians grieve for those killed in a cowardly attack on a mosque in Quebec City,” he tweeted. “My thoughts are with victims & their families.”

The mosque in question had a pig’s head left outside the building last June.

The head was wrapped in paper and accompanied by a note that read “Bonne (sic) appetit.”

Prominent Quebec politicians denounced the incident, which came in the middle of Ramadan, when Muslims fast from dawn to sunset.

Nous sommes tous Québécois, Nous sommes avec vous maintenant et pour toujours. Tu n’es pas seul. Nous sommes une communauté. Nous sommes Canadiens.

I offer my sincere thought and prayers to the families of those lost, to the Muslim community of Quebec City. We categorically agree that this act was cowardly. 

We will Stand With You. Now and Forever… We Are Canadians. We will Never Bow to Terrorism.

To all the Little Children …



It’s only Temporary …

I warned all of you, of your choices and your votes. I warned you that Pandora’s Box was opened and that the monster was approaching.

Now that monster has begun to act. And the World is coming apart at the seams.



NOW !!!