It has been an interesting week. I’ve always wondered when the other shoe was going to drop for me. Medically …
It seems 50 is going to bring me challenges that I was not expecting in any way. Over the past few months, I have had episodes of serious pain, in my back. So severe that I had to get serious pain killers. Thankfully, I’ve only had to take one so far.
I’ve been to see a osteopath, and she worked on me for an hour a few weeks ago, so I have access to her as often as needed. At $100.00 a visit, that ain’t cheap. But insurance now covers 80%.
Two weeks ago I saw my doctor. who went into my image file when I had my osteoporosis check up and bone density tests and my x-rays of my back, and he missed this little problem, when those tests were done, because we were not looking for a problem, with my bones. So it was overlooked.
He looked again, now that I presented pain issues in a location that had not, in the past bothered me. And he found bone deterioration disease in my spinal column. Namely in L 3-4 and 5. On Sunday last, I had a CT scan on my back. This week, my doctor told me that I really needed to be seen by a spinal surgeon. He therefore took that scan to a consult with said spinal surgeon, that I am still waiting to hear from.
With that said, I am on desk duty. No heavy lifting of furniture, which means that set up has come to an abrupt end. I had to call in the reserves to help me out. My friends all stepped up to do what I cannot do any longer.
Thank God I can still make coffee …
Tonight we read about the fellowship and its humble origins. Appropriate that I started a new round of Big Book study, with one of my guys, before the meeting tonight. A.B.S.I. touched on that topic tonight.
We Should Not Toot Our own Horns, nor take credit and be self-congratulatory.
We all put our pants on one leg at a time. I am not the center of the universe. There is a God, and I know that I am NOT God.
What we cannot do alone, we can do, sitting in a room with our friends, together. If I pray, if we pray, it does not matter to WHOM we are praying, but that we ARE Praying.
A very respected old-timer once said that in a meeting …
IT DOES NOT MATTER WHOM YOU PRAY TO, ONLY THAT YOU PRAY…
It’s that simple.
I also know that if I pray to God, which I do … And I don’t get a direct answer from God, then I know I have to hit a meeting, and listen to my friends. With the proviso that if I go seeking an answer, I have to be attuned to listen for that voice coming from around me.
We take very seriously the work we do as a group, on Friday night. And when one of our people fades, and hits the skids, everybody steps into action. On Monday, I went to the meeting and met a friend, sitting on the periphery. Looking forlorn and lost.
She had drunk again.
Not long before, she was standing up front handing out Beginners chips…
I asked her what happened ? She told me.
Giving someone sober directions, while in an alcoholic stupor, does not work.
I gave her sober advice any ways. Welcomed her, told her we loved her and asked her to sit within the group, and NOT on the periphery.
She did not make it through the meeting in one piece.
She left before I could get to her, by the end. I did not see her go.
Tonight, as a group we spoke about what we can do together, and how we all keep RIGHT SIZED, and everything in perspective. That perspective only works when where are sitting in the same room together.
At the end of the meeting another friend took her two-year cake.
As the crowd of congratulations dispersed, my young lady was standing in front of me, all smiles. She has been sober three days. She thanked me for speaking to her and keeping her within the group circle and not having tossed her aside because she drank again.
She took a chip on Wednesday night.
What we cannot do alone, we CAN DO together.
It takes a village …
And we are a village, for sure.
You never know when you are going to save a life.
Constant Vigilance !!!