It is bitterly cold out. The kind of bitter that freezes your fingers if you are not wearing gloves… (-17c/-25c w.c.) Everything that came down over the last week has turned to ice ten times over. Sidewalks and walkways are covered in layers of ice which makes for slippery going.
Last night I went to bed earlier than usual. It was a long day having worked a 5 hour shift on the phones. And like the last time I worked a shift prior to my quitting the phones, the calls were exactly the same. Although I had a few really great conversations with friends who called the office. It was great because I haven’t seen these people in meetings over the holidays so it was nice to hear their voices and see how they fared over the holidays.
I slept in until the very last minute before forcing myself out of bed and into the shower to get going today. I am more tired than usual as of late. I set off for the church around 5, a little later than usual. And people started showing up before I completed set up. Our women’s big book study is going strong with sponsors and sponsees showing up early to read their books together.
The meeting was full. We had close to 35 people, I didn’t get a full head count, but we sat the entire circle and most of the side seats. As it was the first meeting after the new year, times were tough for some, and people went out and drank over the weekend. Hence returns were humble and quiet.
We read from the Big Book, Working with Others, Chapter 7 …
Practical experience shows that nothing will so much insure immunity from drinking as intensive work with other alcoholics. It works when other activities fail. This is our twelfth suggestion: Carry this message to other alcoholics! You can help when no one else can. You can secure their confidence when other fail. Remember they are very ill.
Life will take on new meaning. To watch people recover, to see them help others, to watch loneliness vanish, to see a fellowship grow up about you, to have a host of friends — this is an experience you must not miss. We know you will not want to miss it. Frequent contact with newcomers and with each other is the bright spot of our lives.
I have shared here before that I have resigned myself to a back seat role in working with others at my home groups. In that I show up, I make coffee, I set up chairs and I am present. I welcome new comers. On the odd occasion I give my phone number out, but I shared tonight that “If I give you my number and that number is not used within the first 48 hours of having that number, then the number is never used at all…” On the odd occasion I’ve given my number out, few, few people have gone on and used it.
Big things are happening in our meeting. Lots of changes. Sponsors and sponsees breaking up, and making sure that sponsees are safe from going out and drinking over it. And to make sure they keep up with their step work even though they are sponsorless at the moment. Shit happens. And sometimes egos and attitudes come to bear and breakups happen. It is sad, but it happens. So we keep them all in our prayers.
When ego takes over a relationship, that is a sign that things are going to go overboard. Big attitudes and egos are a problem. We have to remember that it is principles before personalities. We have to be careful when working with others that we do it from a place of grace and not from the place of ego. Sadly, some forget this thought.
A good night was had by all. All of our attendees are sober tonight, And we started the year off working with others, as I thought that this would be a good place to start for the group. And it was well received.
Vacation continues until the 18th. Not a whole lot on tap for the week except my next meeting on Friday night. I may hit St. Matthias on Thursday night, we’ll see how cold it is that night, because I am surely not going to walk all that way in freezing temperatures. And I need to re-up my Opus card because I used up all my tickets on Monday going to and from the phones.
And financial aide has not come yet. Those god damned fuckers in Quebec City should be hung by their balls out in the cold for screwing us over – over the holidays. They plainly know how to fuck people over royally. Bastards…
More to come, stay tuned …